Monday.....blech

Patience is a virtue that some of us don't have.  I have tons of it at times, but at others, I have zilch.  Like now.  It's Monday morning, and I am still half asleep, not wanting to go to work, but knowing that I must.

Anyways, just stopping in for a brief moment to drop a line or 2 in the good old blog, since I haven't written anything new in at least a week or so.  I'm still alive and kicking, raising hell and having fun.  And I can't wait to go to England next month.  I leave 4 weeks from TODAY!!!!!  Woot woot!!!!!

I will try to sit down tonight or soon and write something more meaningful and detailed, but this is it for the moment.  As much as Mondays SUCK - I hope y'all have a great one - we are here, on this side of th dirt, so it can't be all that bad.

Hmmmmm......

Had a really weird dream last night - dreamt I was in South Carolina, driving at night, and couldn't stay awake.  I was driving down Two Notch Road, towards the mall (I think it was called Columbia Mall?), but the road looked more like Freeman Road over here between Hampton and Jonesboro.  I remember I kept closing my eyes, relying on my memory to guide me on the road, peeking every once in a while to make sure I wasn't going to hit anyone or anything.

I remember struggling with trying to open my eyes to see where I was going, and just having a hard time in general with driving.  I was so very sleepy.  Then I realized that I was dreaming, and forced myself to wake up and make a conscious effort to stop that dream.  And apparently it worked, as it didn't continue.

I went to a dream interpretation website to see if I could get any insight on what this dream might mean, and some of what I found makes sense, and some of it didn't.  Oh well.  I really hate some of the dreams I've been having lately, but of course I can't seem to remember any of them.  This one last night, I was so profoundly sleepy, it was amazing.

Not a surprise.....

The one I blogged about on the 10th, that met a wonderful guy on the 9th and couldn't wait to change her relationship status online?  Yeah, that's already over.  And she's mad at him, for not being everything he seemed and claimed to be.  I suppose that's fair to be angry at him if he misrepresented himself or lied to her.  But damn - how many guys will lie to a girl if they think they can get a quick piece of ass?

My own worst enemy.....

When someone is full of self doubt ...it is hard for them to believe that someone else can believe in them....

Saw that a few nights ago on Facebook.  So very true!  And this so perfectly describes me at times.  Like the night I saw this.  I was so angry when I left work, and was hoping the gym would help with the anger, but the anger turned into self-doubt and self-loathing.  I can't say I don't know why the gym turns my feelings that way, I know exactly why it does. 

I'm not making the progress I want to be making, and it's no one's fault but my own.  Others are seeing the results, but I just don't see them sometimes.  Or more accurately, I'm not seeing enough results, fast enough.  And I know, I didn't gain the weight overnight, and it won't come off overnight, either.  Dammit! 

I know that we are our own worst enemy - we are our harshest critic.  I don't need anyone's help in making me feel bad about myself, I do enough of that all on my own.  Of course when it's a pile-on by others, that just exacerbates the feelings I have towards myself, and who needs that?  It's a choice to let others bother you, regardless of the circumstances, and it's a lot easier to deal with the comments of others, than about your own thoughts in your head.

Just to be clear - I am not looking for confidence boosting from anyone today - I'm in a great mood and a great frame of mind, and I am certainly not fishing for compliments from anyone.  I was having a bad day on Thursday when I saw that post on Facebook, and started this entry.  I just chose to stop where I was at, because I was headed downhill on the self-doubt train and knew I needed to stop and get my perspective back.  All is well in my world!

Titty sprinkles.

 

I just don't get it........

Facebook status update seen this morning: 

I met a wonderful guy tonight that just blew my mind!!! He is sweet, funny, caring, thoughtful, and just as playful in every way that I am. I will change my relationship status as soon as i can get to a computer!!! He is a wonderful single father of two beautiful girls!!!

Seriously?!?  She just met him last night, and she's already going to change her relationship status?   Ever hear of actually getting to know someone before jumping into a relationship?

Not to mention - every time she meets someone, she jumps into a relationship without really getting to know them, then gets all upset and bent out of shape when they don't live up to her unrealistic expectations.

She's not over the one she was supposed to marry - she still carries on about him, and about how he lied to her, and how he's lying to the one he cheated on her with, that he is currently partnered up with.

Don't get me wrong - it's a great feeling, thinking you've found "the one" - but you don't just fly off the handle, all willy nilly, thinking you should go ahead and broadcast that shit to the world.  I mean, hell - don't you think that will absolutely scare the living the daylights out of the guy, declaring you are "in a relationship" the very day after meeting him?  If it doesn't scare him to death, that's a major warning sign, for many things, and you should run like hell away from him.

I've seen a saying "I'm crazy, not stupid" - actions like this person's may make one think she's both. 

Easter Weekend

Had a great weekend down in Florida at Brian's brother's house.  Steven, Mama Clydie and I got there Friday afternoon, hit the beach before dinner, and damn was it windy!  The wind made it quite cold, I don't know how Steven stood the water, although I was told it was warm.  And the wind was so brutal, it was pelting our legs with the sand, and that was quite painful.

Saturday we got up and went to Sebastian Inlet - there's a body of water there, and on the other side is the ocean.  Steven preferred the ocean, as it had waves.  More of the big, rough waves he got Friday night, but fortunately it wasn't cold.  It was still very windy, but with the sun out, it was quite warm.  We all got sunburned to some extent, but of course Steven will turn brown in a day or two.

Made it home safe and sound tonight, and now I'm tired.  Time to head to bed.  I hope everyone had a happy Easter.

Ho hum......

It's Monday night, after midnight (so technically it's Tuesday), and I'm just not feeling going to bed. I find it funny that I wanted to spend the entire weekend in bed, sleeping, yet when I NEED to be sleeping, so I can be rested for work, I'm not that sleepy. The snakes sure are out this year. When I was walking the boys one day last week, I found a very small dead one, less than a foot long, on the sidewalk. Gabriel tried to eat it, so we threw it into the woods. The next night, there was a flattened one in the road where we cross - a little bigger than the one on the sidewalk. Neither dog paid any attention to it. Last night, as we crossed the street, there was a slightly larger snake crossing the damn road towards our house. When I say slightly larger, this thing was maybe a foot long, and it was black and white striped. It was actually kinda pretty. But, I am not a fan of wild snakes, especially when I've seen 3 in as many days. Both pups have upset tummies - Steven woke me up at 2am because he smelled the stink of sick dog poop coming from underneath my bedroom door. I got up and cleaned the mess, and have no idea which one did it, as both were laying in my bed, acting all innocent. This morning, at some point before the alarm went off, I heard a somewhat unfamiliar noise, and then one of the dogs got back on the bed, and came and stood on my hair and tried to get me up. I told them it wasn't time to get up yet, and rolled over. A few minutes after my alarm went off, I heard that same noise, then realized it was a dog having a sick poop again. About that time, poor little Dominion comes over towards me with this sad look on his face, and out the front door we all went, Gabriel on the runner, Dominion loose (on purpose), and me in my pj's (no time for clothes). After Dominion finished, we came in so I could change and take them on a proper walk, and Gabriel starts having sick poop, so out he goes again on the runner while I changed clothes. Yuck, what a shitty way to start a Monday! Both boys got the pleasure of having chicken and rice tonight for dinner, and their tummies seemed to have calmed down. I'm hoping for a peaceful, full night of sleep tonight, with no poopie accidents. Okay, well the sleepy bug is starting to hit, of course, now that I'm doing something, so I'm gonna take advantage and go to bed. Have a great week.