Wednesday, August 22, 2012

It's been awhile......

I didn't realize it had been so long since my last post.  Goes to show you that life is sometimes boring and nothing exciting happens sometimes.  Main reason I haven't written is that I just haven't had the energy to put 2 thoughts together and sit and type them out on here.  Ever since my surgery on the 8th, I've been fatigued, which I imagine is just a side effect of the anesthesia.

I went back to work last week on Tuesday, the 14th, only missing 4 days of work.  After the first 2 days, I was kinda wishing I had stayed out another couple of days.  Not due to pain but to the fatigue and exhaustion.  I didn't have pain at all once I went back to work, and haven't taken any tylenol since just 2 days after surgery.  But getting up so early in the mornings has been kicking my ass, as well as not getting my daily naps I got for a few days.

This past Saturday, I was worn out - absolutely exhausted.  Gabriel woke me up at 5:15am, making that lovely wretching sound in the bed.  I got him off the bed but couldn't get him out of my room in time before he "earped" (a word my Meme loves) 3 times.  I knew the dogs would want to pee, so after I cleaned up the "earp", I put Gabriel on the runner and let Dominion run around the yard for a few minutes.  I was so tired at this point, and all I could think about was getting back in bed. 

We got back in bed, and I managed to go back to sleep for a few hours.  I woke up somewhere around 8 or 9am, and was still so physically exhausted that I just couldn't fathom even attempting to walk the dogs, so it was back on the runner again.  I spent the entire day laying in bed, napping, watching tv and farting around on the laptop.  I did manage a run to Walmart to pick up an Rx and some cold meds, as I know the congestion was playing hell on me as well - my chest was tight and I had that deep cough trying to creep in on me that I get sometimes.

Back to the grind at work again this week, I've been crashing shortly after dinner every night.  Tonight, as well as the last 2-3 nights, I wake up anywhere between 10:30pm - 1am, check messages and go back to bed.  It's like I can't get enough sleep, but the way my body feels, I'm getting too much sleep.  My back is stiff and achy from being in bed so much, but I just don't have the energy to do anything.  I think a good bit of that is that I'm not going to the gym - doctor's orders until my follow-up next week.  I so hope he releases me to go back to working out regularly!

I did take a long walk with the dogs tonight - we normally just walk down to the corner store and back, which round trip is maybe 1/3 of a mile.  Tonight we walked to the pond on Hastings Bridge and including the lap we made around the pond, it was probably a 1.5mile walk.  The pups were dragging by the time we got home, and my legs and ass were hurting a little from the walk.  It's amazing how much stamina you lose after missing just 2-3 weeks in the gym!  I'm going to try to do this walk every day until the doctor releases me back to the gym, so I'll already be building some stamina back up in a slow and easy manner.  I know I'm in for a rude awakening when I do get back to the gym, but I think I'm ready for it!

Good thing the boys didn't see the deer that I saw on our walk this morning - I woulda had my ass dragged across the street and into the woods had they seen her!  Dominion heard her, snorting and stamping her feet, and was staring hard at where she was hiding in the woods, but he never saw her.  I have pretty good control over the dogs, but if they were to see something that really interested them, like something they both wanted to chase, they would definitely test my ability to control them.

Well folks it's time for me to hit the hay - I hope you've all had a great 13 days without me!  Have a wonderful rest of the week!

Thursday, August 9, 2012

Quotations....just because.....

Here's some quotes I've found in various places online lately.  Just because I'm posting these, doesn't necessarily mean any of them apply to anyone I know or any particular situation going on.  I just happened to like the quotes and wanted to share them, and this is as good a place as any.

*I may have a strong personality on the outside, but I'm full of insecurity on the inside.

*I just wish that for one day, I could truly speak my  mind and tell people what I really think about them.  Unfortunately, I am too damn nice for my own good.

*I'm the kind of girl that laughs at horror movies.  Do you really want to mess with me?

*If I was a bird, I know who I'd shit on!

*The best love is the one you fell in accidentally.  The strongest love is the one you fell in unexpectedly.  The truest love is the one you fell in wholeheartedly.

*Telling someone with depression to just get over it is like telling someone ina  wheelchair to just get up and walk.

*Most people will try to be the sun shining down on you on your brightest day.  I will be the moonlight shining down on you on your darkest night.

*Happiness is not a goal, but a decision.  Life is 1% what happens to you, and 99% how  you react to it.

*It's very easy for someone to take sides when they only know one of them.

*The next time you judge someone or their situation, keep in mind, most people who make it look great on the outside most likely have a very dark and messy inside.

*Do not search for happiness in anything other than yourself, because no matter what you think, your happiness only lies in your own heart, not in external things.

*You can lie to me or my loved ones all you want, but I always find out.  I may not say anything but knowing is good enough.

*There are some things better left unsaid, but you can bet your sweet ass I'm going to say them anyway!

So that's it for tonight - I hope you got a chuckle out of at least one of these, and perhaps some of the others made you think about how they may fit some part of your life.  But to say this again - none of these are aimed at any one or any situation - they are just quotations I wanted to share.


Had my surgery yesterday - wasn't that bad of an experience afterall.  Long story short - was home by 10am and so far have only had to take 1 pain pill.  I'm just taking tylenol for now, so we'll see how that works for me.  I did have some pretty bad pains earlier today, not sure if was surgery or my normal mid-month pains.  Whatever it was, didn't last long thankfully and I'm back to just being a little sore.

My dogs have been laying with me when I've been in bed - they are doing their part to take care of me I suppose.  Steven helped me out last night, warming up dinner for me (I slept through dinner because of that 1 pain pill I had), and he got up and walked the dogs this morning.  Thank goodness for Momma Clydie being here to help out - she's taking great care of me and I'm thankful for her being here with me!

Not sure when I'll be back at work, I suppose it will depend on how I'm feeling next week.  I don't go back to the doctor for 3 weeks, and I know I'm not supposed to be out that long - I suppose I will give them a call on Monday to see what they have to say, as the doctor didn't mention it yesterday.

Okay folks, I don't have a lot to say right now, just tired and a little sore.  Thanks for those of you that were thinking of me, and of the prayers that were said on my behalf.  It is much appreciated!

Monday, August 6, 2012

Another week......

Pre-op was today - had to stick me twice to get my blood.  I thought it kinda funny that the doctor is running a pregnancy test "just to make sure" - I told him I haven't seen my husband since R&R 2 months ago and have had 2 "normal for me" periods - and he just gave me a sly smile and talked about all the "immaculate conceptions" and "baby Jesuses" he's delivered over the years due to women claiming to not have had sex in months, or since their husbands were deployed.  Well, I can assure you - this woman is not a cheater, and would never ever consider fooling around on her husband!

Surgery is scheduled for August 8.  Unless something changes, as I was told today was possible - I have to be there at 6am.  That sure sucks!  Awful early in the morning!  But this will be so worth it once it's done and overwith and I'm all healed up.

Dominion and Gabriel got into a fight this afternoon right before I got home.  Steven called me, worried about Dominion, as he was sneezing blood.  Apparently Gabriel got him right in the crook of his nostril, and we all know noses bleed bad when injured.  He appears to be okay now, so I'm just gonna have to keep an eye on them.  Steven had separated them until I could get home and examine Dominion, and as soon as they got back together, they almost got into it again.  That was almost 3 hours ago, and fortunately they have settled down and are leaving each other alone for now.

Had a great time at my brother's mountain cabin weekend before last.  Very relaxing, other than running after the boys.  They had a great time running around, sniffing things they'd never seen before.  And the brother's dogs were rather accepting of my boys, to an extent anyway.  LOL

Well folks, I have a few things I want to get done tonight, so it's time to move on.  I hope you all have a great week, and it'll probably be sometime after surgery day before I update again.  Wish me luck!