Saturday, April 30, 2011
We took Dominion to the dog park then to Petsmart to wander around a few minutes and are now back home. I am so thankful we still have a home - those storms the other night were AWFUL! We listened to and watched the weather reports on WSB from the time we finished dinner until we left for my mother's house around 1am. There was a tornado a few miles down the road from us, and we weren't going to risk riding out the storm in our house (double-wide mobile home for those of you that didn't know). We sat in Mom's basement and Steven and I slept til a little after 3am, while Brian was watching the news and talking to Michael.
On the ride home, Brian was telling me about all of the destruction just a few miles south of our home - an RV dealership got pretty messed up, a forklift place was destroyed for the most part, a Shell gas station/convenience store was completely obliterated. When I watched the news the next morning, I heard that the death toll across the south was pushing close to 200, and this morning I heard the number is around 340 and expected to rise, as there are many more people missing.
Such devastation and loss of life, it's really hard to imagine. But I can see how it happens - people ignore the warnings they get on the news, and if they lose power and don't hear that a storm is barreling down on them, then they can't get out. Then there are stubborn people that refuse to leave, that don't believe it will happen to them. Honestly, I fall into that category at times, but gladly left the house when I knew there was a tornado approaching just a few miles away. I am so thankful that the tornado didn't make it to my neighborhood, and so sorrowful for all the loss of life and property that others have experienced.
We are gonna spend the rest of the weekend around the house cleaning and organizing, and that's about it. I think I'm going to head to the store in a few minutes and get a pork roast to slow cook on the grill this afternoon. Time to try my hand at some barbeque.
I hope everyone has a peaceful weekend, and please count your blessings and be thankful for what you have. I know I am!
Sunday, April 24, 2011
Got the laundry started, but it won't get finished tonight. Also haven't gotten around to doing my manicure and pedicure tonight, so that will have to wait until tomorrow. Oh well, life goes on, doesn't it?
Well the shower is calling my name, as is the bed....I hope everyone had a weekend that was at least half as great as mine was! And have a great Monday tomorrow!
Thursday, April 21, 2011
I planted my peppers and tomato plants last night. Cayenne peppers, jalapenos, and bell peppers. Gonna make me some great home made salsa this summer with all those peppers and tomatoes! I hope they grow well and produce a lot.
Contemplating calling the foot surgeon to see if I need a recheck - I've been assuming my issues are weather and medication related but I just don't know anymore. I know I've mentioned before that I'm more comfortable in heels than in flats, so yesterday and today I wore what I've nicknamed my "biker sandals" - they have a platform on them, probably an inch high at the toes and it goes to about 2-2.5 inches at the heel. They are very very comfie, which is why I wore them 2 days in a row. This afternoon I stood up to walk to the check signing machine, and I couldn't put any weight on that foot without a LOT of pain in the ankle joint.
I took the shoes off and walked around barefoot for a few minutes, than sat back at my desk for about 20 minutes. When I got up to go pass out the payroll checks, my foot was fine - NO pain. This is so weird, and somewhat annoying. I do realize that I don't have things nearly as bad as a lot of other people, it's still a nuisance when you're used to being active and able to walk around when and how you want to, without babying your foot.
Having my pickle cravings again....must be those lovely hormones building up! I realized today that this is the PMS week, and I mentioned to Shirley that I haven't been bitchy, which was surprising to me. Then she smiled and said "you know, that's just a matter of opinion!" Hee hee!!! But looking back at this week, I HAVE been bitchy.....or more like, things have really pissed me off and I've come damn close to blowing my stack over it. I keep telling myself to remember the Serenity Prayer - I know I can't change other people, so I have to either accept their faults or work with them to see what I can do to help them prevent the mistakes they are making. What kills me about it is that I sometimes feel as if I'm doing everything to help them other than actually doing the job for them, and it still doesn't help at times!
Breathe deep, Deanna......breathe deep......
Having nightmares about the ex-husband, and about the wedding. I imagine the ex-husband has been informed that I'm getting married, as Steven talked to his brother the other day and told him. The dream I had with him in it - I had traveled somewhere with Brian's family, and for some reason James was with us. He was actually being nice, but I don't know why he was with us as I just wanted to stay far, far away from him in the dream. The wedding dream I had the other night had to do with the chaplain not showing up. I'm sure that was spurred by my worry over why he hadn't emailed me back regarding the time change of the ceremony and the rehearsal timing.
Anyways, wedding planning is pretty much done, still have to visit the cake lady to give her my design choice, and meet with the caterer. Gonna be nice and tan by the time the wedding rolls around, too! Got a good base going on so far....
So glad we get Good Friday off as a holiday at work! Yay, let the weekend begin!!!!
Tuesday, April 19, 2011
Went by Meme's tonight to cut Yum-Yum's nails, and she wasn't home. The cat wasn't anywhere to be seen, and I wasn't going to crawl around and search under furniture and drag his lil mean ass out to clip those claws. I guess Meme forgot I was coming by this afternoon. Oh well, I know if she had been home she would have kept me there for a long time, chatting.
Guess I'll have a piece of the cookie/brownie thingy I made tonight and hit the sack. Have a great night!
Monday, April 18, 2011
My foot is taking a beating during these workouts of mine. Friday I slipped off the step during step aerobics, and while it didn't actually hurt, the worry that it would spooked me. I'm trying so careful not to trip up and hurt myself, as, let's face it - I'm not the most graceful person out there! It appears that my doctor fixed my foot up good, to the point that it will take a LOT to injure it, I just don't want to find out just how much it will actually take. I felt something kinda uncomfortable tonight, and it had something to do with how I stepped on the step in interval class. It doesn't hurt now, but it's kind of a tired, achy feeling.
I'm a little swollen, too, but that would be because I forgot to take all of my meds last night before I went to bed, including that wonderful little blood pressure pill that helps keep the fluid build up off my feet and hands. I didn't realize it til I got about half way to work, so I took some of it when I got home from the gym, and I'll just pick back up where I left off with the rest of it tonight. I can tell some of what I'm feeling in my foot is from not taking that one little pill last night. Dammit!
It just dawned on me that it's a 4 day work week for me this week - we get Friday off this week for Good Friday! Yay me!!!!
Thursday, April 14, 2011
Posting something for the nosy one that stalks my blog repeatedly, apparently waiting for my next exciting entry....thank you for only stalking me now and not harassing me with your hateful posts.....
Too tired to blog last night. I crashed shortly after dinner....been working extra hard at the gym....physically tired, intellectually tired from dealing with morons that just suck the smarts right out of me....
I mean, I know I'm not perfect and I make mistakes and don't always try my best, but damn....some people just seem like they have to try really hard to be as dumb as they appear to be. (the people I'm referring to relate to my work....but not my coworkers)
So glad tomorrow is Friday....gonna rest and recharge.....
Monday, April 11, 2011
I know what I'm capable of physically, what I can make my body do and what it will look like when I finally reach the goals I keep setting. It's just so discouraging sometimes to see how slowly this is going. I feel like it's going to take FOREVER to get where I want to be. Thankfully, I have a coach and motivator - Brian - to help me.
I know for certain that Brian loves me just the way that I am, overweight, out of shape, or not. There's absolutely no doubt about that! But he sees how I feel about myself and knows that by helping motivate me and pushing me at the gym, it will help me reach the goals that I want to reach.
Yes, I'm human. I have feelings, and sometimes they are easily hurt. I'm sensitive about some things, and it pains me at times to share these things. Hell it hurts to even talk about this! But I needed to speak my peace, and let this go and get my mo-jo back at the gym. So, make fun of me if you want, it won't be the first time I've been made fun of in my life for my weight. I'm sure it won't be the last, either. Just go back and read my blog about the pot calling the kettle black. Unless you are perfect, then you have no right to make fun of or talk bad about anyone.
Sunday, April 10, 2011
At one point, though, Mousse got scared and started yelping at the one dog that insisted on sniffing him. That was like the beacon of a wounded fish in water to the sharks - ALL of the dogs had to come over and sniff him, to figure out why he was such a wussy I suppose. He finally calmed down and was just fine. He barely growled at any dogs, and only showed his teeth a few times. I would call yesterday's visit a success.
Today I just didn't feel like going over there and getting him, and dealing with his aggression towards Dominion. Not to mention that Dominion doesn't particularly care for Mousse, and is somewhat jealous of him.
I've worked on the wedding invitations this weekend and they are almost ready to go out. I still need the addresses of a few more people, and once I have those, I will be DONE! I still need to design the cake, as far as how I want it decorated, and take that by the cake lady this week, and call the caterer to let her know my colors and to arrange to pay her the deposit. I am so thankful that my mother and her husband are footing the bill the whole she-bang! She and her husband have been so generous to us for this joyous occasion and I appreciate it so very much!
Had a nice long nap yesterday, but awoke from it not feeling very well. Not sure what it was, almost like my blood sugar was down too far, but I had eaten before we napped (a couple of toasted chicken salad sandwiches) so I'm not sure what that was about.
I can't wait to hit the gym again tomorrow. We missed it on Thursday and Friday, and were too busy yesterday with taking the chipper back to the rental place and running a few other errands and the dog park, and we purposely skip on Sundays. I'm hoping Rhonda is back for the interval class tomorrow night, but if she's not, then it will be Lindsey again and she's kick-ass! Woo hoo!
I hope you all have had a wonderful weekend, and enjoy the rest of your Sunday afternoon.
Thursday, April 7, 2011
But I do realize that perhaps the block was because yesterday's entry was titled "Hump Day", and the title of the blog is "Sex, Lies and Broken Promises". But seriously! I think I've posted at least one other blog with the words "hump day" included in the title. Makes no sense to me. I followed the instructions to plead my case that the blog is not spam, offensive, or abusive, and never got an email back from them. I just went to the "test blog" I posted a little while ago and attempted to post it and "voila!" it worked! And to think that I've seen full-blown nudity on Facebook, yet my blog is perhaps spam or abusive? What a crock!
We skipped the gym tonight - still sore from last night's Power class! We took Dominion to the dog park after dinner, and he had a great time playing with a female white husky named Sheba. She was beautiful!
I suppose I need to work on the wedding invitations - Mom bought the ones that you print yourself (my request), so I need to figure them out and make sure they will work on my printer. I also need to work on how I want my cake designed so I can take a drawing to the cake lady soon. And I need to order the lights for the table decor so that Barbara can make the blocks for me.....and I need to get the birdseed thingies filled and tied up....and I need to find shoes.....
Speaking of shoes - there is a pair I found online at Dillard's that I absolutely LOVE! The problem with them? They aren't flats. I don't really want flats, but Mom is trying to insist that I wear flats or extremely low heels since I'm already a few inches taller than Brian. She doesn't want me towering over him that day. It's just so hard to find nice shoes in my size, that don't have more than a 2" heel. aaaaarrrrrrggggghhhhhh!!!!!!
I am soooo glad tomorrow is Friday!!!!
Wednesday, April 6, 2011
I couldn't concentrate last night - couldn't write in my blog more than the little bit that I managed, couldn't concentrate and play games online, and was just frazzled all around. Not sure exactly what caused that, I thought I had it figured out earlier today but darn it to heck if I can remember it now. LOL Oh well, it's probably fatigue; I've stayed up too late the past several nights, through no one's fault but my own.
Well the bridal shower/bachelorette party has been set! Gotta hurry up and get us registered at Target! (will have that taken care of by Sunday afternoon) And dang it, Shirley said no strippers. :-( Just kidding! We were teasing her about going to the Coronet Club, or having strippers, but honestly that's just not my thing. I had a stripper at my 21st birthday party, so it's not completely foreign to me, and while I know Brian wouldn't have a problem with it, it's just not for me.
Tuesday, April 5, 2011
There are just not enough weekends left before the wedding! We have so much we want to do at Mom's house and around here before they get back in the US, and I just don't know that we will be able to pull it off. And we have stuff to do at the lake house too, things that Marion asked Brian to take care of for him. Oh and the girls at work have mentioned taking me out for a bridal shower event of some sort - such a whirlwind of activities in the next several months.
Just not feeling the writing here tonight....my mind has gone blank for now. I suppose that's a hint that I should shower and hit the rack. I hope you all have enjoyed your Tuesday, and will have a fantastic Hump Day tomorrow!
Monday, April 4, 2011
I'm getting sleepy already....from staying up too late last night and working out so hard tonight. I'm trying to decide if I wanna try the kick class again tomorrow night. I haven't done it in a while, and I need the cardio that it provides. I suppose it will depend on how I feel when I get to the gym tomorrow afternoon.
I've been keeping up with this sweet little baby named Hollis Yaun on the CaringBridge website. He had some serious birth defects, which they knew about before he was born, and he's had 2 surgeries, been on ECMO, and has spent more time in his brief little life in the hospital than he has at home. He appears to be doing quite well, and may get to go home later this week.
Last Wednesday, his mother's journal entry made my heart sink - it said Hollis was born on a Sunday, around 9, and died on a Tuesday morning, around 3. It was all I could do to not fall apart while reading this, although I don't know this family I just felt for them so much and was rooting for him. I had to go back and read the journal entry again to see she was talking about how he coded when he was only a few weeks old and had died, but they managed to bring him back. She went on to tell how many weeks he spent in which hospital, his surgeries, his ECMO, and how far he has come since he was born in September. I pray for that family and that sweet little boy, and if you would too, it would be great!
Ten more minutes and it's shower time! (yes, waiting til "wrasslin'" is over LOL)
I stayed up too late last night, but that's not surprising, it's par for the course. I decided when it was bedtime to put away the hanging laundry, which took a little longer than I had anticipated. But, at least it's done. The basket of clean stuff can wait til tonight. (Brian doesn't put any of it away because I have a certain way I organize everything and if it's not put away my way, I have trouble finding things).
Well, it's Monday morning at work, the computer I need to do payroll and orders with is down, so there's not a whole lot I can do at the moment. I suppose it's time to start filing everything that's sitting around, waiting to be put in its place.
Looking forward to a great workout tonight! Y'all have a great Monday!
We all have choices, every single day. We make small and large choices. From the clothes we will wear that day, to the breakfast cereal we grab from the cupboard. We choose which route to take to school or work. We choose who we will speak to, and what kind of mood we will have. Some choices are easy to change if we feel we've made a bad one. But, some choices we make can have lasting and permanent effects on our lives.
We have a lot of input when it comes to our choices. Your heart tells you things. Your brain tells you things. Your friends, family, and even strangers tell you things. Nobody is going to choose correctly every time. But, when you know (and it's easy to tell) that you are faced with a choice that can completely change the path of your life, then reflect hard on it. Take ALL the input you get, and weigh all the options. The path of least resistance is rarely the best path to take.
The best gauge I can think of for helping to choose wisely is you. Who are you? Is the choice you are about to make in line with the person you are? Follow that answer with another question. Have I been making good choices? If so, then stay with who you are. If not, then perhaps it's time to start making new choices, and beginning new habits and routines.
Since I was 18 years old, I have made some horrible choices. Many of them have altered my life in ways that can never be changed, even if I start to make better choices. I feel as though I have wasted talents, and gifts that God gave me because of my pettiness and short-sightedness.
Don't fall into the trap of instant gratification. Choose for long term happiness. Choose for the strengthening of your character not the weakening of it. Choose to be honest. Choose to be tenacious. Don't give up on your dreams and goals. For me...it's too late to be able to reverse the effects of my incredibly bad choices. I only hope that none of you ever have to give this type of advice based on your choices.
Thanks for reading. I wish you all well.
The entirety of what Michael said is so very true. We make choices every day, some good, some bad, some that won't have much lasting effects, and some that will follow you around for a lifetime. While many times you can make changes that will turn things around, sometimes you're stuck with the choices you've made and there's nothing you can do to change them, other than try to make things for the best at that point. Hopefully whenever any of you do make mistakes, you learn from them, and don't repeat them.
Sunday, April 3, 2011
We rode Marion's Harley to Jan & Ricky's yesterday afternoon and had dinner with them. I haven't been on a motorcycle since I was in college, so it was great to be on one again! Jan let me borrow her leather coat for the ride home, so I was quite warm (it had turned off a little cool, and of course riding on the highway on a bike makes it even colder).
Unfortunately there was some bad news yesterday - one of my uncle's dogs, Rascal (the father of my mother's dog Mousse) got hit by a car at the lake house and was killed instantly. My uncle and his wife were quite upset about it, and it made me sad as well. I know they were attached to Rascal, and he had made such an attitude change for the better since he was diagnosed and treated for diabetes, and they are hurting. Please pray for their peace of mind and that they find comfort in the coming days.
Today has been a day of laundry, shopping, and working a little bit at the storage unit. I had to buy Steven some new sneakers, as his were starting to come apart. I figured it was better to buy them now before his current pair were totally destroyed. I also had to buy a few groceries, and we spent about half an hour going through Brian's stuff at the storage unit. We really just need to spend about half a day there to go through everything and decide what to do with it. It just didn't work out today for us to do that.
I bought some bell pepper, jalapeno, cayenne pepper, and tomato plants today. I'm going to plant them in pots and put them on and around my back porch. That area will get plenty of sun, and also will shade during the day some as well. I think I'm going to get some cucumber and squash plants, too. We like all those things, so it will help out some with the groceries.
We watched Wrestlemania 27 tonight. It was interesting to see all the wrestlers, and how everything went down. Apparently there's some kind of thing going on with the WWE on May 1, we may end up watching that, too. I didn't pay much attention to that, so I'm not sure what that's all about.
Got one more load of laundry to finish, then have to put it all away. Then it's DONE for another week! I so despise doing laundry. I count myself lucky that Brian doesn't mind doing laundry, and he doesn't mix bright colors like red with the whites and turn all the undies and socks pink!
I hope everyone had a great weekend, and that you all have a great Monday!
Saturday, April 2, 2011
There are things around the house that need to be done - cleaning, laundry, etc., and a few other errands around town we have to take care of. Oh, and Michael wants me to come help paint at Mom's this weekend. He is painting his bedroom, and will be working taking the wallpaper down in the bathroom and painting it, although I don't know that he's going to work on that this weekend.
I left work early yesterday to take Mom and Marion to the airport and surprised myself at how well I kept myself "together". I had a moment at Mom's, but after that, I was fine, and Steven stayed composed as well. We dropped them off a little after 5pm, then had to drive back roads to get home because I75 was a freaking nightmare! The southbound traffic was backed up from Henry Co all the way to I285! Michael got to see some places he's never seen before - Riverdale (yes, such a fantastic place to see now isn't it, all you folks that used to live in Clayton Co LOL), and the Krispy Kreme donut store (no, we didn't stop, but it sure was tempting!). He treated us to dinner at the Chinese buffet after we stopped at Petsmart.
I am so blessed to have a best friend like Michael! He is such a wonderful person with a great spirit. He fits in with us here and my family as well - Meme even said he was officially adopted into the family Thursday night at Mom's bon voyage party! lol
Meme is such a card sometimes, and some of the things that she says are out of this world. She finally made the comment that Mom would never see her again, that she would be dead before Mom came back. She didn't say it to Mom, but to my uncle, but still, it was said. We were waiting for that comment to come, and sure enough, the day before Mom and Marion left, there it was. Lord have mercy!
Well I'm going to have some coffee and get my day started - I hope you all have a fantastic weekend!